Marine Outreach Base = Heaven

So this morning pretty much was the worst. I cried. All through breakfast. Then I had to eat by myself. I am just so mad at God. He needs to just show me something spectacular so I can stop doubting myself. The suckfest carried through to base worship. I had to lead a song called 'Joy'. What a hypocrite I was.

Then we went to circuit riders. Sam talked about unbelief. How fitting. I didn't want to listen. But I did. And I pouted about it the whole time. God sucks sometimes. Then we made some declarations against unbelief to banish it from our lives. I didn't mean a word I said.

After circuit riders we came over to our new home for the week. The marine reach base was so kind as to let us stay here for the week so that we don't have to drive so far to get to circuit riders. It is so fancy here. Everything is so modern. There is heating inside (AMAZING), so I am not frozen for the first time in over a month. They have free wireless. And everything is in one building so I don't have to go outside in the cold if I don't want to. But there is a sweet waterfall down the hill, so maybe I will go outside tomorrow. But man, it was definitely a much needed reprieve to come to this comfortable place. I love rugged living, but it is nice to live in luxury once in a while. They even have an espresso machine - no more lame plunger coffee. Kiwi's call French presses 'plungers'. Gross. All I can think of is clogged toilets when they say that. And for dinner Janessa cooked me some fish with her delicious spices and it was SO GOOD. I haven't had good food in so long. Man, I needed that.

Also, the Fiji 1 team have decided that we will all get undercuts on our heads (we are thinking two lines) to signify team unity and bonding. I think this is such a good idea! I am so excited!

I even got to talk to mom and grams and aunty Teen on skype for a bit (FOR FREE). It was nice to talk to them! They missed me at thanksgiving this weekend... I can't say that I really missed thanksgiving though, given that I can't eat much of the food... I guess maybe plain potatoes and veggies. But that's nothing to fly home for.

And this evening all I had to do was nothing. Man I needed to do nothing for a bit. It has been just GO GO GO for all of last week and the weekend. I have had zero down time. An introvert needs to hang out with herself every now and then. I missed me. I am glad to be able to just sit on my computer and upload pictures to facebook (FOR FREE). Life is good, even though my relationship with God is on the rocks.