Woman Appreciation Day

This morning I had to present my creative presentation. My topic was "Have a Biblical Worldview". Until yesterday, I had no idea what that meant. And this week is so busy that I had NO time to think of anything overly unique and creative, so I wrote a song. I wrote it so fast yesterday! In like 15 minutes. I like it a lot. It got a lot of laughs. These are the words:

People these days just don't understand
That the bible has the answers for all the land
And all the people, and the issues they face
For every country and every race

Oh a biblical world view
Is important for me and you

The world tells us to be the best at what we do
To get a good job and make lotsa money too
But the bible tells us that the last will be first
And that money doesn't really matter

Oh a biblical world view
Is important to me and you

The world tells us it's OK to fornicate
Cuz in that moment, your pleasure inflates
But the bible tells us that you should wait
Until you find your soul mate

Oh a biblical world view
Is important to me and you

So next time that you think you might
Like to know what's wrong or right
Just grab a bible and flip right through
And ask yourself, "What would Jesus do?"

Oh a biblical world view
Is important to me and you

After lunch I was on dishes with Kyle... but without him because he ditched me again! But it was OK because I had a new dishes friend. Her name is Emily and is a new staff member at the base. We are basically soul mates. She used to be allergic to every food on the planet too! But then God healed her. So there is hope for me yet! And I finally have someone that understands the pain of being so full of allergies!

This afternoon, Carly brought me to get some ministry from Beryl. Just to clear out any unpleasant memories of rejection and such things in my past. She got me to think of a situation that upset me, and then ask Jesus to come into the situation. And having him there would shield me from unpleasant words or just make me feel loved in my unhappy moments. It was kinda cool. I felt so peaceful afterwards.

And then I had to get beautiful really fast! Because tonight was the special night for the girls that the boys were putting on. I had no idea what was going to happen. Only that the girls were supposed to get dressed up by 5:30. So I had to get ready pretty fast. But I managed to get into my dress with make-up on and hair curled almost on time... But the boys know us so well. They didn't come to pick us up right at 5:30, they waited till about 5:45. They are so smart.

Rich showed up at the door to cottage 5 and escorted us to our taxi. He then drove us to the A-frame, which took about 30 seconds. And then Brent helped me out of the van and escorted me to my seat where I found a gluten, dairy and egg free chocolate bar. How sweet!

The boys serenaded us with some musical performances. They cooked us a delicious meal. And served it to us. The normal human beings got fettucini alfredo with chicken. But I am special, so Kyle cooked me a delicious piece of fish and some gluten free pasta with tomato sauce. It was so delicious. I was at a table with Leish, Tiff, Emily, Anne, Tasia and Hannah D from Tennessee. We were there for one reason, and one reason only... the food! As soon as we got our food, our table was silent because we were enjoying our food so much. We were done a good 15 minutes before the other tables.

Schnegg set up a photo-booth in the corner and took millions of pictures of us. They could have just set up a camera for the afternoon/evening and we would have been entertained. But they had more music after supper, and then a dance. It was so fun. We just danced the night away, and took lots of pictures.

There was one awkward moment when I decided that I should apologize to Kyle for getting annoyed with him for copping out on dishes this afternoon. So I apologized, and I wanted to make it a full apology like Josh taught us last week, so after I asked if there was anything else he wanted to bring up or say. And he said 'Uh.. that you look gorgeous and beautiful and ....' Aweeeee. I didn't know how to react, I got a little awkward. Haha!

For the last song, they put on a slow song. And the guys all grabbed some of the girls to dance, but I was left out and didn't get asked. This really brought up some emotions. Holy. I got so upset. And it was so dumb. But I just felt so rejected. And so much rejection from the past started to come up, especially rejection from boys and by peers. I am really sensitive about not getting picked for things. When I was in school, I always got picked last for teams in gym class. At school dances (or any dances for that matter) I never got asked to dance by any boys. And every 'boyfriend' I ever had broke up with me. I have some deep roots of rejection inside of me, and when I didn't get asked to dance tonight it all came to the surface.

I barely held myself together while Jacob so kindly walked Kat and I home and made small talk about geology and neuroscience (because we are the two scientists on the DTS), he kissed us on the hand and then I grabbed Marit and took her for a walk (but it was actually not a walk, it was a sit and cry). Man. I just cried. I just felt so rejected. I feel like no one ever likes me and no one ever picks me or chooses me first for anything. And I feel like no guy will ever want to dance with me. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me that boys don't like.

But Marit talked some sense into me. I am so thankful for her. She is such a good friend. And she just comforted me through my sobbing and whining. It is nice to have a shoulder to cry on. I am not really used to that. It is weird. But nice.

I need to be secure in myself and know that God accepts me and will never reject me and that one day some guy will ask me to dance. I always try to be real and try to be myself, and I know that I am a bit weird and unique because of that, and I really strive to be myself, but it is so hard to keep on being me and not changing myself so that other people will accept me.