Break-Fast

Fasting is so cool. I think all 20 of us fasted for the past 24 hours. It amazes me how much deeper in worship you can get from fasting. The past 24 hours have been so weird. Like I was in another world for a few days or something. I went to the worship room at 8 PM last night and stayed till 4:30 am. Crashed into bed until 8:30 and went back to the worship room until 8 PM tonight.

I lead the worship at 12 noon this afternoon. It was kind of a gong show, but still super fun! Except I made Matt sing one of the songs in a weird key, and I made Elisa play the piano for songs she had never heard before! So it was pretty good considering the circumstances.... and the fact that we were all tired and hungry!

I also finished the book 'Is that Really you God?' by Loren Cunningham today, and I have to write a report on it by monday... and do my CIR by Monday. Maybe another sleep-less night is in order....? I hope not! I will have lots of time tomorrow!

I had one revelation... Hannah Douglas told me about her wonderful revelation that she got while reading Isaiah about how she is beautiful in who she is and what she looks like, but also is beautiful in what God can use her for. I have to admit I was a bit jealous. It was like 2 or 3 AM and I was tired and hadn't heard from God yet. (But I did paint a sweet painting on the banner). So I got out my bible to see if God would tell me anything through the word. When I got to James 3:9, I couldn't get past it. I kept reading it over and over again.

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. (James 3:9)

So I didn't really know why I was stuck on this, so I just sat and thought for a while. And then a conversation from lunch on Friday came back to me. I had been talking with Hannah and Rich about swearing and if it is OK to swear or not. I said that I thought it was OK in certain situations, and I told about how I had told a certain guy to F*** off when he hurt my feelings. I felt like that situation called for it. But after reading the verse from James, I felt really bad. In telling any other human to F*** off, I am cursing God and his creation. It made me realize that this guy was having struggles and the Devil may have been causing him to do those things that hurt me, but I shouldn't be cursing him for it. I should be praying for him and for his release from his inner demons and struggles and that he will find God. So I repented for what I had said and prayed for this guy.

Also, I don't know if I have talked about this in my blog yet or not, but this guy named Matt who is on my DTS is exactly like one of my best friends from home, Wilson. He talks just like him and his voice is the same. So when he says "Steph!" I always think, "Ohhhh yay, Wilson is in New Zealand!" But then I realize that it is just Matt. So I facebooked Wilson and told him this. And today I got a heartwarming message from him. But apparently he has been going through some trials and tribulations recently. A recent bicycle accident has left him with a broken jaw and eating from a straw, and then said bicycle was stolen. He seems down. So pray for him!

Anyways, Marit and I are having a cookie and chip chow-down and everyone else is watching us eat! Mwahahahhaha!

Pce out yo, I'm off to get an awesome sleep!